These days
Clouded mind
Heavy brain
Haven’t been up for much these days
Only dragging myself around
From day to day
From home
To work
To the grocery shop
And then back home
To bed
And sleep
After 8 hours in front of a screen
That constantly
Unwillingly
Fries my brain
To a point where I can barely keep up
Nor remember the important things
These days
Eating has gotten harder again
How would it not
When I mostly live in my head
Going from here to there
As if in a frenetic race
To get nowhere
A year ended
Another one started
And I’m still
Exhausted
Confused
And yet
Hopeful
For calmer days
For a meaning I will find
someday
In a life that I want
That I’ve shaped
And that wants me as I am
Cheers for the new beginnings
That this year is gonna bring
To a new me that will flourish
To better days
That will be better
When I will feel better
Than I do
These days…